Never promise me!

To the love of my life, ❤

This is not the first one I am writing to you; we used to write notes like this. Precisely me. And you were always eager to read my musings and you made clarifications and corrections.. 😛 So, there is nothing special today honey! Today is as special as yesterday. 🙂

I know you hate promises. I know you don’t believe in Vows or Waadas.. Either me too. You trusts me is the best part in our relationship. You listens to every stupidities I blabber and shoots a killer smile at every stupid things I do. You left me independent in my own way & always made me fly. You dragged me into my favorite bookstores and made me smile even at my dull days. You made me sleep in your arms on the days I was off from hectic work days. You never promised me all these.. But you always kept on doing it! ❤

Those evenings in which your fingers entwined in mine.. Your eyes drowned in my eyes and those words from your lips which always makes me smile.. I love You! What else I need from you? 🙂

You never promised to surprise me; but you always! You never promised to care me; but you always! You never promised to make me smile; but you did that every moment. You never promised to walk with me; but you always! You never promised me anything; but you made me happier always making me feel that I am the luckiest girl in the world. You never promised me but I know you silently promised yourself on caring me & loving me! I know you will keep on loving me always. I know you will held me closer always. I know you will make me smile always! ❤

So on this normal special day, dear sweetheart, promise me that you won’t promise me ever. Promise me that you won’t try to flatter me with vows. Promise me that you will be like this forever. 🙂

And in return I promise you that I will keep on loving you. I promise I will be there for you till the last breath. Will care you till the end of the world. Will love you to the moon and back.. Always!! Always!! & Forever!! ❤

Lets walk together in the happiness and the sorrows.. In the worries and laughter.. Every Day & Night!! 🙂

With <3,
The girl you loves! 🙂

 

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the real SHE

Often what you think about her is an illusion.. She is a lovely kid in real with a serious face out.. She still loves to watch Chip n Dale comics with the kids and laugh insanely after mimicking them.. Watching the whole academy award movies never made her a dumb.. She is still a kid who believes December is to watch all the Christmas movies.. She still loves to cuddle up under her blanket & fight with her brother for silly reasons..She can handle Adele & Raihanna; but she loves to hum ‘Let it go’ &’ Yankee Doodle’.. You can see a cold black heart outside; but the truth is she cries for every sober movies & she weeps over night thinking about the verses in the last book she read.. She loves reading never means she is out of league; make a coffee for her while reading, you gonna get her best hug in return..

If she grabbed the water bottle & took the first sip without considering you beside, that’s the real she.. If she walks over the kerb wall edge & gives the best smile after reaching the end, that’s the kid in her.. If she holds your hand while walking, never say a word but hold her tight cause she is that independent girl who loves to walk with you till the end of the world..If she cries sitting next to you; it’s not because she is weak..It’s because she feels lighter when you are around..If she says she loves you; it’s not that she is dying to have a relationship, but it really means she love you.. It really means she care for you.. If she is out of a normal girl’s league doesn’t means she is easy to handle.. She is fragile; handle her with the best care..

And in the end, If she hurts you; it’s the broken pieces of her heart which is hurting you..

 

P.S: I am too weak in writing romantic verses.. But it’s just a debut try for my best ones.. 🙂

The BIRTHDAY Note

Oh My GOD!!!
You are turning 27.. Look at that white hair.. 😛 You are getting older my dear.. 🙂
Beware!!

Hey dear,
Every year I never failed to keep a Birthday Note in your inbox. This time it was a bit long 😛 & this one is too long.. I am sorry I made the call only by morning.. (You know naah how tired I am on these days).. Now m stumbling through words and waiting for a start..

09.09.2015.. 🙂

On this wonderful day my major part is to thank your Mom & Dad, whom I always considered as my own Mom & Dad.. 🙂 Thanking them for gifting me with a wonderful human being.. I am still unaware of how much Sunshine you brought to my life.. That short visits you made to Kerala every year, never made me realize that you are going to be one of the major part in my rest of life.. Those sleep-overs never gave me a trace of finding my best brother in you.. It all happened as a miracle..

We never made fun of each other.. We never thrown bad words each other.. You were always calm.. I wish to wipe out those dark days from our life.. It still haunts my sleep often.. I hated you when you left me alone.. I hated you when you went abroad again.. I hated you when you stayed silent at my crucial days.. But then I realized hating you is like hating my self.. I am sorry.. 😦 We still managed to hang on.. Love you for that.. ❤
Once you were my back bone.. 🙂 When my parents said they didn’t find a nephew in you, else they find their own son; I was proud to own a brother like you.. Under every thunder & storm you kept me close to you.. You were my eyes when I was in my hospital bed.. You held my hands and never made me feel that I can’t see..

After a roller coaster ride, our life is calm now.. We were always a family & We are.. I love Mayasa more when she say her ‘Shibu Mama’ is the best.. I love Reeha when she calls you ‘Bu’ and point her tiny fingers to the plane in the sky.. I wish this days to stand still.. Having a wonderful family and people around us.. Having the fun together.. Being one in every little problems we face.. But I know life have to go on.. Giving us another zillions of memories..

Now all I can say is.. Thank You!
Thank You for staying these long 24 years with me.. Thank You for finding your first girl friend in me.. Thank You for lending your ears always for me.. Thank You for staying invisible around me.. Thank You for holding me tight in every hard times.. Thank You for forgiving me for my mistakes.. Thank You for the opinions you thrown at me.. Thank you for helping me to take decisions over life.. Thank You for getting married to a wonderful soul ❤ She is awesome.. 🙂 Thank you for being kind to me always.. Thank You for the tears you made in my eyes.. Thank You for leaving me alone often.. That made me more stronger.. Thank You for being patient to me.. Thank You for making me believe that m good still..Thank You for all the love, care & support.. Thank You for saying once that m your best friend.. M still… 🙂 Thank You for the movies.. You made me a movie freak.. Thank You for the music.. ❤ Thank You for reading my blog always.. 🙂 Thank you for the long drives & long talks.. Thank You for moulding me in to a person.. Thank You for everything you done for me till.. 🙂 Thank You for everything you gonna do for me in future.. 😛 Thank You for being my best brother.. Thank You for being my Best Friend.. Thank You for this thing.. that thing.. & Everything.. After all..
Thank You for being my Shibu.. ❤

Thank You for making me ‘ME’.. I owe you.. 🙂
Happy Birthday dear.. 🙂
Stay Blessed!!

With all LOVE,
Yours NIMI…

Anniversary

She was just out from the shower. Water trickled from her hair. Drop by drop. Without realizing he is behind her she started draping her Black Saree. Her favorite one. The one he gifted on their last anniversary. Her chaotic face shown her tough task on dealing with this unfamiliar piece of costume. Last time she wore this was around eleven months back when they went for a candlelit dinner. It still have the fragrance in that restaurant.

He was still standing at the door gazing at her reflection in the mirror. He laughed playfully in his mind seeing her playing with Saree; like a kitten playing with a ribbon (without knowing what to do). She is still concentrated on how-to-manage-this-piece-of-cloth task. He slowly came to her and patted on her shoulder. She continued adjusting her fleets like nothing happened. He came in front of her. She smiled at him; still with a worn out face unveiling I can’t win the battle with this thing. He made a face of ‘It’s not a big deal.’ She looked herself with a sigh.

In a moment he dragged her closer and carried her face in his hands. A kiss on her forehead. She looked up to his face with a smile. He bent down to her and whispered in ears. ‘Happy Anniversary Honey!’ Tears trickled from her eyes with the rainbow of happiness.

when SHE opened her little eyes!

Everyone will be having their moment in life. Best moment in life! Which brings goosebumps to our body. Which can make you cry in happiness. The moment of lifetime. I guess everyone have such a moment. If you can’t find what it is; wait; something big is coming on your way. I am a person who find happiness in every simple things. (Even in a simple smile from a stranger. Really! 🙂 ) In these 24 years I lived, it’s just that one simple day that makes me cold as an ice. I can still hear that shrieking voice ringing in my ears.

It’s almost midnight. I was not feeling comfortable in that chair in front of the labor room. I turned to my Mom. Anxiety and stress filled in her eyes. Dad is sitting in the other end of the corridor. I got up and walked randomly. The chairs in front of the room is packed with people. What they all have to say? Agony, Chaos & all above; eagerness. I walked towards Dad and sat next to him. “Can I make a call to Jeeju?” Without any pause he handed me the phone. I started dialing to my brother-in-law; mom warned me that he may be asleep. I checked time. Its 12.15 am; only 9.45 pm in Qatar. Not a big deal! After all its his wife who is inside that room. He answered the call in a sleepy voice. I conveyed the message that she got pain and is taken to the labor room. He said OKAY and disconnected the call. I saw my Mom praying frantically. I was not that afraid as she is; but yeah! A lots of delivery stories and all are already in my head. I need everything to be fine with less pain. (It won’t happen 😦 )

I looked around. Stretchers, Wheel chairs, Oxygen cylinders, White gowned nurses, White coated doctors. In a sudden moment I felt so blue. How hard it is to be in a hospital? What if it’s for a lifetime? Every eyes with a story of pain or hope; or so many other unwanted feelings. Then I realized why I chose to be an Architect. Why I hate the medical field. Actually I don’t hate; I am afraid of it. I can’t withstand this atmosphere; I m sensitive. In a moment I thanked Almighty for creating Doctors and Nurses in this world; who are less concerned about their lives and more about other’s.

The door of the labor room swung open; the doctor came forward calling out my sister’s name. Mom sprang up and was about to run to her.Doctor gestured to sit there itself. “She is having pain; a little fever too. There is nothing to worry; You should wait. Let me see.” Mom freeze. Tears were trickling down. She returned to her seat and started crying. I was in a confusion on what to do. Is it getting complicated? Dad comforted us by saying there is nothing to worry about. He already passed two such situations alone, while Mom was inside the labor room for me and my sister. Dad called Mom’s sister. She is making her way to the hospital. After a few minutes she came with her son(my best friend). After seeing my mom, my aunt too started crying. What a strange sisters! :O My Dad tried his best to keep them calm. I sat with my cousin in the corridor. 

Its Onam after two days. Someone was cleaning the ground floor lobby when she was taken to the labor room. A floral competition was going on between the different departments in the hospital. Today was canteen employees turn to show their creativity. They started the design by drawing a Ganesha in the center. While all this happenings; I often checked how is the design progress (the typical designer in me 😛 ). It’s almost 2 am now and half of the design is completed. As usual we babbled about our old days and memories; it all ended up in ‘Ek tha tiger’; the new release then; already watched by him. I was looking forward to know more about the movie. (the typical movie freak in me 🙂 ). 

altAqHuSBDcXfZ_bm54SePA4xl493bNdjEcEc_YD47OV_P0Its 5.10 am and they are doing their final work in the design. Someone is trying hard to place flowers to complete Ganesha. After some adventurous tries, they managed to place the eyes for the Ganesha (two dark flowers). There came a shrieking cry breaking the whole silence. The door swung open again. Once again her name called out. “Nothing to worry. It’s a baby girl.” THANK GOD. I smiled. I smiled with all the happiness without realizing  that this shrieking voice is going to make me smile throughout my life till now. After a few moments,their came the new member of our family.Nurse handed over her to Mom rounded in a Pink baby blanket. She looked amazed. She winked her big black eyes and made a yawn. Welcome to the world honey! Giving a mere smile she returned to the sleep. That’s it. My more colorful life started from there on wards. 

Years passed. She started crawling, walking, talking. She even started helping me in making floral designs. Turning 3 on the coming Onam, she is the best present I got from Almighty. Who can change my every tear to smile 🙂 . I often tells her she was like a little rabbit when she was born. Now, whenever she see a picture of rabbit she asks me “I was like this or beautiful than this?”. I always answers, “Nothing is more beautiful than you.”

I don’t know whether anything wonderful is coming on my way. But for me, till now its she and the moment she came to my life is the best ever happened to me.