Why Today?

Am I gonna post this?
Yes I’m.
Why?
Because today is February 29. I am not sure whether I can make a post on another February 29th.
What’s so special on this day?
There is nothing more special on this day. this day is as special as yesterday and the day before.
Huh! You are making yourself complicated.
Yes! Everyday is special and today is a bit more special. Because this is a special granted 24 hours to us for this year. Which gives an additional turn to earth. Which makes a 365 to 366. 

Even in my writers bloc mode why I am doing this?
I don’t know actually. But I m feeling this 24 hours is a privilege to us. A chance for us in every four years to live more. Laugh more. Think more and do more. And long after (If I live up to that long) I would like to login to Word press & read this post on another February 29th to cherish the memories of the day.

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Screenshot from my mobile.. 🙂

So, What so happened on this day.
* I woke up at my Cousin’s home this day; because today is Monday.
* I had a drive with my Brother.
* My bus got complaint in half way & I had to got into another one to reach Office.
* I ordered 4 books online. (Amazon is giving good deals.. 🙂 )
* I had my lunch alone. (My colleague got some urgent work in between)
* And now I am writing this post.
(What happened next will be added soon, Now it’s almost 3.00 pm IST)

And one of the great news today is Academy Awards.

Leonardo Di Caprio owned the Gold man at last.. After years and years of waiting.. Proving if you deserve it, you will definitely get it.. 🙂
And the best I heard on this day is;

” Let us not take this planet for granted. I do not take tonight for granted. Thank you so very much.” – Leonardo Di Caprio
So let’s cheer up & make a good day.

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Leo.. I love you.. ❤

All congrats to Academy Award Winners!

P.S : All the lovely people in my life.. I love you more & more.. ❤

Stay blessed!!
Happy blogging.. 🙂

the real SHE

Often what you think about her is an illusion.. She is a lovely kid in real with a serious face out.. She still loves to watch Chip n Dale comics with the kids and laugh insanely after mimicking them.. Watching the whole academy award movies never made her a dumb.. She is still a kid who believes December is to watch all the Christmas movies.. She still loves to cuddle up under her blanket & fight with her brother for silly reasons..She can handle Adele & Raihanna; but she loves to hum ‘Let it go’ &’ Yankee Doodle’.. You can see a cold black heart outside; but the truth is she cries for every sober movies & she weeps over night thinking about the verses in the last book she read.. She loves reading never means she is out of league; make a coffee for her while reading, you gonna get her best hug in return..

If she grabbed the water bottle & took the first sip without considering you beside, that’s the real she.. If she walks over the kerb wall edge & gives the best smile after reaching the end, that’s the kid in her.. If she holds your hand while walking, never say a word but hold her tight cause she is that independent girl who loves to walk with you till the end of the world..If she cries sitting next to you; it’s not because she is weak..It’s because she feels lighter when you are around..If she says she loves you; it’s not that she is dying to have a relationship, but it really means she love you.. It really means she care for you.. If she is out of a normal girl’s league doesn’t means she is easy to handle.. She is fragile; handle her with the best care..

And in the end, If she hurts you; it’s the broken pieces of her heart which is hurting you..

 

P.S: I am too weak in writing romantic verses.. But it’s just a debut try for my best ones.. 🙂

The DAY

It wasn’t a perfect morning for me. Still haunted by the beautiful moments with her; I couldn’t get off my mind from those days I lived with her. Yes! I am not living for the past few months. Walking and behaving like a corpse. Every day & night thinking over and over about the purpose of my existence without her.

I climbed the steps of the stadium & seated under a tree. Morning classes are over and I have a whole day left to roam around the town. It’s been three months here in the new place. Every day I chose to be here. Sitting among the gallery & finding myself lost in some bitter memories. The leaves of the tree murmured something. A green balloon of yesterday’s Heart Day March kept on striding in the air, it’s twain trapped among the branches of the tree. An uninvited grin covered my face. Is that balloon my heart? Trapped in haunting memories with a messed up brain, which can’t understand that past is past & we have to move on! Oh, She already moved on; now it’s my turn to bury the past. I m tired of acting in front of family & friends. Even if I m not, my body is tired of this fake smile I throw.

I pulled out my phone from the pocket & started striding through it. I re-read the texts from my close ones who always soothed me with their best ways. But each time I talk to them I can feel the wound in my heart opening up again & I can feel the spilt of blood. I looked at her Whatsapp DP. She again changed the picture. This time she is giving her usual big smile, her hands wrapped around her fiance’s neck. I felt the rush of my blood. I am a looser.

Ooh!! Loud shrieking voice broke my thoughts. Kids from the nearby special school are playing. They made loud laughter; for a moment I felt irritated. They are laughing & look at me! A dead heart and brain with some bones and flesh. For a while my inner voice told me to keep on watching them play. I felt myself drifting again in the thoughts. I re-called the word we use-Mentally Challenged. Mentally challenged kids. What that really means? They are far better than normal people who are challenged in every aspects of life. Once again I came back to the present.
They are getting arranged on a starting point. I guessed and cheered myself up for the upcoming race which gonna happen soon. The teachers tried their best to make them reach properly over the lane & the whistle is blown. They all gave a howl and started running with wide open smile on their face. Each and every one glowed in the morning sun rays. All of a sudden one among them stumbled & fell on the ground. He cried out in a loud voice & then it happened. All the kids who were running made a halt and ran back to the fallen one. They all lend hands to make him on foot. I saw sadness looming over each and every face seeing that one painful face of their friend. After making sure of himself that he is fine; the fallen kid started smiling. As sadness; happiness also is contagious. That single smile flourished and spread to everyone and ended up in loud laughter. I felt tears rolling down my cheeks & my lips made a slit and it gave the best smile after a long time. I felt a pain in my cheek bones.

I looked up. God! In this 23 years; I just felt that I m going through the best day in my life. The happiest moment. The day which made tremendous change in me. The day I stopped hating the life around & started loving it. The magic of some little kids!
It may be a day, an incident or a moment; look around, our life is out there!

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Just inspired from an incident shared by my friend. 🙂 It’s been stuck unedited in my drafts for the past several months & today I felt no edits are in need and it’s time to publish.

The BIRTHDAY Note

Oh My GOD!!!
You are turning 27.. Look at that white hair.. 😛 You are getting older my dear.. 🙂
Beware!!

Hey dear,
Every year I never failed to keep a Birthday Note in your inbox. This time it was a bit long 😛 & this one is too long.. I am sorry I made the call only by morning.. (You know naah how tired I am on these days).. Now m stumbling through words and waiting for a start..

09.09.2015.. 🙂

On this wonderful day my major part is to thank your Mom & Dad, whom I always considered as my own Mom & Dad.. 🙂 Thanking them for gifting me with a wonderful human being.. I am still unaware of how much Sunshine you brought to my life.. That short visits you made to Kerala every year, never made me realize that you are going to be one of the major part in my rest of life.. Those sleep-overs never gave me a trace of finding my best brother in you.. It all happened as a miracle..

We never made fun of each other.. We never thrown bad words each other.. You were always calm.. I wish to wipe out those dark days from our life.. It still haunts my sleep often.. I hated you when you left me alone.. I hated you when you went abroad again.. I hated you when you stayed silent at my crucial days.. But then I realized hating you is like hating my self.. I am sorry.. 😦 We still managed to hang on.. Love you for that.. ❤
Once you were my back bone.. 🙂 When my parents said they didn’t find a nephew in you, else they find their own son; I was proud to own a brother like you.. Under every thunder & storm you kept me close to you.. You were my eyes when I was in my hospital bed.. You held my hands and never made me feel that I can’t see..

After a roller coaster ride, our life is calm now.. We were always a family & We are.. I love Mayasa more when she say her ‘Shibu Mama’ is the best.. I love Reeha when she calls you ‘Bu’ and point her tiny fingers to the plane in the sky.. I wish this days to stand still.. Having a wonderful family and people around us.. Having the fun together.. Being one in every little problems we face.. But I know life have to go on.. Giving us another zillions of memories..

Now all I can say is.. Thank You!
Thank You for staying these long 24 years with me.. Thank You for finding your first girl friend in me.. Thank You for lending your ears always for me.. Thank You for staying invisible around me.. Thank You for holding me tight in every hard times.. Thank You for forgiving me for my mistakes.. Thank You for the opinions you thrown at me.. Thank you for helping me to take decisions over life.. Thank You for getting married to a wonderful soul ❤ She is awesome.. 🙂 Thank you for being kind to me always.. Thank You for the tears you made in my eyes.. Thank You for leaving me alone often.. That made me more stronger.. Thank You for being patient to me.. Thank You for making me believe that m good still..Thank You for all the love, care & support.. Thank You for saying once that m your best friend.. M still… 🙂 Thank You for the movies.. You made me a movie freak.. Thank You for the music.. ❤ Thank You for reading my blog always.. 🙂 Thank you for the long drives & long talks.. Thank You for moulding me in to a person.. Thank You for everything you done for me till.. 🙂 Thank You for everything you gonna do for me in future.. 😛 Thank You for being my best brother.. Thank You for being my Best Friend.. Thank You for this thing.. that thing.. & Everything.. After all..
Thank You for being my Shibu.. ❤

Thank You for making me ‘ME’.. I owe you.. 🙂
Happy Birthday dear.. 🙂
Stay Blessed!!

With all LOVE,
Yours NIMI…

Sunshine Blogger Award!

And here it is.. I m too lucky to own two Sunshine blogger award 🙂 Overwhelmed by the Love.. 🙂

First of all Thank You my dearest people Sri & Deepika for nominating me for the Sunshine Blogger Award. Sri is really my sunshine in WordPress. The one reason  I am addicted to this platform. She always supports me with her words and she rejuvenates me with her magic of stories. Keep on writing my dear.. 🙂 And Deepika on other hand is my charming writer who always carries happiness with her words around here. My lovely girl.. 🙂 ❤ Stay blessed! 🙂 Both these wonderful ladies never let me down & always makes me write with their kind appreciations.. So once again Thank You for nominating me.

Now coming to the answers for both the questions.

The question Sri asked me was :
What was that one sunshine moment in your life that you would like to recall again and again ?

And my answer is:
My sunshine moment I already narrated in one of my post before ‘when SHE opened her little eyes!‘. For me, If God exists or not, the most miraculous thing happeing in this universe is a new birth. I belive it as a magic by the Supreme Power. And my sunshine moment happened on a dawn break of 2012 August 27, when I got my first look at my niece. They gave us the little sunshine wrapped in a pink towel wearing a pink band showing ‘Baby of Nisha’. With a small yawn & bulging eyes she looked amused in the new world & went back to her sleep. I whispered in her ears “Mayasa”.
And that is my sunshine moment in life that I would like to recall again & again, even everyday before I go to sleep.. 🙂

Now, the question Deepika asked me was:
Have you had a crush on someone before or do you have one now? And have there been any funny situations regarding them?

And here goes my answer :
Yes! I had crush on so many. From Harry Potter to Shah Rukh Khan & even the Landon Carter from A Walk To Remember. 😀 But nothing was hilarious like my crush over Mohammed Irfan. I am too fond of singers & he is a singer from Hyderabad who took my sleep away from 2005 on wards. I saw him flaunting over TV screens in different singing reality shows. And its in 2007, I saw his name in the movie credits for the first time. I kept an image of him in my phone and often told my Mom that I need someone like him. 😀 I kept a different folder for keeping his songs & all. I blabbered about him to every one and recently I showed my room mates one of the MTV unplugged Coke Studio performance by him on his recent chart buster ‘Banjaara’, my room mates took away my phone & played it again and again. As my good luck my Irfan now became their Irfan & they also started keeping his picture in their phone. 😛 The possessive secret lover me stopped playing his songs loudly and stopped blabbering about him. 🙂 I still laughs in my mind thinking about that. 😀

Now my choice of nomination :

Zafar
The one who gives answer to my every little question. 🙂 More than a blogger he is my great friend who always carries a sunshine but never shows off! You must answer my question. 🙂

Srinath
My BIG writer. Already completed a novel & I am looking forward for it. He always have wonderful opinions & thoughts over everything under sky. 🙂

Malavika 
She is a creative writer who makes poems & stories from everywhere. May be busy in her works, still I think she can give a perfect answer to my question.

My question is :
What you think is the most powerful feeling? Why you think so?

The rules pertaining to this award are:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you
  2. Answer the question they asked you
  3. Nominate other bloggers for the award
  4. Ask them a question of your choice
  5. Notify the bloggers you have nominated

when SHE opened her little eyes!

Everyone will be having their moment in life. Best moment in life! Which brings goosebumps to our body. Which can make you cry in happiness. The moment of lifetime. I guess everyone have such a moment. If you can’t find what it is; wait; something big is coming on your way. I am a person who find happiness in every simple things. (Even in a simple smile from a stranger. Really! 🙂 ) In these 24 years I lived, it’s just that one simple day that makes me cold as an ice. I can still hear that shrieking voice ringing in my ears.

It’s almost midnight. I was not feeling comfortable in that chair in front of the labor room. I turned to my Mom. Anxiety and stress filled in her eyes. Dad is sitting in the other end of the corridor. I got up and walked randomly. The chairs in front of the room is packed with people. What they all have to say? Agony, Chaos & all above; eagerness. I walked towards Dad and sat next to him. “Can I make a call to Jeeju?” Without any pause he handed me the phone. I started dialing to my brother-in-law; mom warned me that he may be asleep. I checked time. Its 12.15 am; only 9.45 pm in Qatar. Not a big deal! After all its his wife who is inside that room. He answered the call in a sleepy voice. I conveyed the message that she got pain and is taken to the labor room. He said OKAY and disconnected the call. I saw my Mom praying frantically. I was not that afraid as she is; but yeah! A lots of delivery stories and all are already in my head. I need everything to be fine with less pain. (It won’t happen 😦 )

I looked around. Stretchers, Wheel chairs, Oxygen cylinders, White gowned nurses, White coated doctors. In a sudden moment I felt so blue. How hard it is to be in a hospital? What if it’s for a lifetime? Every eyes with a story of pain or hope; or so many other unwanted feelings. Then I realized why I chose to be an Architect. Why I hate the medical field. Actually I don’t hate; I am afraid of it. I can’t withstand this atmosphere; I m sensitive. In a moment I thanked Almighty for creating Doctors and Nurses in this world; who are less concerned about their lives and more about other’s.

The door of the labor room swung open; the doctor came forward calling out my sister’s name. Mom sprang up and was about to run to her.Doctor gestured to sit there itself. “She is having pain; a little fever too. There is nothing to worry; You should wait. Let me see.” Mom freeze. Tears were trickling down. She returned to her seat and started crying. I was in a confusion on what to do. Is it getting complicated? Dad comforted us by saying there is nothing to worry about. He already passed two such situations alone, while Mom was inside the labor room for me and my sister. Dad called Mom’s sister. She is making her way to the hospital. After a few minutes she came with her son(my best friend). After seeing my mom, my aunt too started crying. What a strange sisters! :O My Dad tried his best to keep them calm. I sat with my cousin in the corridor. 

Its Onam after two days. Someone was cleaning the ground floor lobby when she was taken to the labor room. A floral competition was going on between the different departments in the hospital. Today was canteen employees turn to show their creativity. They started the design by drawing a Ganesha in the center. While all this happenings; I often checked how is the design progress (the typical designer in me 😛 ). It’s almost 2 am now and half of the design is completed. As usual we babbled about our old days and memories; it all ended up in ‘Ek tha tiger’; the new release then; already watched by him. I was looking forward to know more about the movie. (the typical movie freak in me 🙂 ). 

altAqHuSBDcXfZ_bm54SePA4xl493bNdjEcEc_YD47OV_P0Its 5.10 am and they are doing their final work in the design. Someone is trying hard to place flowers to complete Ganesha. After some adventurous tries, they managed to place the eyes for the Ganesha (two dark flowers). There came a shrieking cry breaking the whole silence. The door swung open again. Once again her name called out. “Nothing to worry. It’s a baby girl.” THANK GOD. I smiled. I smiled with all the happiness without realizing  that this shrieking voice is going to make me smile throughout my life till now. After a few moments,their came the new member of our family.Nurse handed over her to Mom rounded in a Pink baby blanket. She looked amazed. She winked her big black eyes and made a yawn. Welcome to the world honey! Giving a mere smile she returned to the sleep. That’s it. My more colorful life started from there on wards. 

Years passed. She started crawling, walking, talking. She even started helping me in making floral designs. Turning 3 on the coming Onam, she is the best present I got from Almighty. Who can change my every tear to smile 🙂 . I often tells her she was like a little rabbit when she was born. Now, whenever she see a picture of rabbit she asks me “I was like this or beautiful than this?”. I always answers, “Nothing is more beautiful than you.”

I don’t know whether anything wonderful is coming on my way. But for me, till now its she and the moment she came to my life is the best ever happened to me.